what exactly am i doing?
pushing people away and being a bitch.
im constantly being trapped between two personas.
no.

M

lazy

im lazy and im not motivated
im also wasting a lot of oxygen.

M

Fights

Its one said, that its all about what you're worth in this world.
the value of you. 
To add value, like simple maths, you fight for more, and therefore you will gain.
is that necessary true? 

you know that mood where you sit and listen to this song, it just brings up so much, what you want to aspire in life, how much you've actually done, and whats happening/
its like a head spin, your head spins in the ways of what you want your life to be and yet somehow its never the way you want it to be. why is that? 
my head is spinning, has been spinning so much lately, its the moments that i spend alone, which is dare i say, most of the time, that catches up to me. 

i want to move to new york. 
i want to live in a loft with amazing tattoos that are beautiful and meaningful.
i want true friends that dont bail, that understand the person who i am, the good and the bad all in one
i want my dad to be myside. 
i want to not be such an insecure person and grow up.
yes i want all that. 

who are we? who are you now? 

old music we say

M